Why can't I just have a normal body that can wear cltohes off the rack? Ha. I said rack.
Then I just start to think "oh, it's because you are fat. If you lost weight things would fit you."
I am also wondering why I cut my hair off and thinking that it's either too long or too short but it's just not right. Or I don't know how to do it.
And I'm wondering why I'm getting my pictures taken on Friday when I take pretty much the worst pictures in the whole world. And am full of body hate.
And I know I should be appreciative about what my body can do and not what it looks like, but I'm not there right now.
I keep making changes and having weird regrets about them. And they aren't things that I think would change my life and I'm then disappointed that my life hasn't changed. They are just things I want to change. But maybe slightly underneath I think that if my hair is shorter or I have a new computer at work or my office is rearranged something else will change. But it doesn't. Only the thing that has changed has changed.
This shall pass. I hope. Or maybe I can pass it if I get on my bike or my yoga mat.